The Rotten Mango podcast explores a tragic case involving Sarah, a young woman diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder (DID) after enduring years of severe abuse in her childhood. The episode delves into Sarah's traumatic past, examining how her harrowing experiences potentially contributed to the development of her DID, a condition characterized by distinct personas or "alters" that serve protective roles.
The central focus lies on the debate surrounding Sarah's guilt and victimhood in the killing of her alleged abuser, Harold. The episode explores the complexities of the case, including the prosecution's arguments against Sarah and advocates who contend she acted in self-defense, having suffered repeated exploitation and psychological manipulation. It also touches on efforts for clemency based on Sarah's apparent remorse and rehabilitation.
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From a young age, Sarah endured severe neglect and multiple forms of abuse, as recounted by Dr. Mike Lloyd. With her distracted mother dismissing her pleas after being assaulted, Sarah lacked stable parental support. She suffered sexual assault from neighbors like "Doc" and Harold, who continued the pattern despite Sarah's objections. Though her parents noticed signs like bruises, they failed to seek proper therapy for Sarah's extensive trauma.
Sarah's psychological evaluation revealed dissociative identity disorder (DID), a condition characterized by distinct "alters" that serve various protective roles. Alters like Noname hold traumatic memories, while Alyssa emerges to handle situations Vanessa cannot cope with. The alters exhibit different personalities, behaviors, and varying levels of awareness. Psychologist Dr. Hutchinson notes Sarah's DID likely developed as a protective mechanism to dissociate from her childhood trauma.
Prosecutors argue Sarah is a cold-blooded killer who murdered Harold out of curiosity, pointing to her fascination with violence and lack of defensive wounds on Harold. However, advocates contend Harold was an abusive predator who groomed and exploited the traumatized Sarah through repeated sexual assaults, controlling behavior, and degrading acts. A key debate centered on the admissibility of evidence related to Harold's concerning behavior with young women and online activities.
In a controversial decision, the judge excluded key evidence about Harold's alleged predatory conduct from the jury, including testimony about his inappropriate interactions with underage girls and visits to explicit websites. This limited the jury's ability to consider the full context. Though the jury foreman later expressed regret over the lack of options like a self-defense strategy, Sarah received a "hard 50" minimum sentence.
Despite her DID diagnosis and history of abuse, Sarah received a severe sentence. Advocates have rallied for clemency, arguing she has shown genuine remorse and rehabilitation in prison through programs like training service dogs. They believe her actions post-murder suggest someone trying to start anew, not evade justice. Efforts focus on reducing her sentence or obtaining a pardon by highlighting her growth and potential for positive contributions.
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Sarah's childhood was marked by a lack of parental support and severe forms of abuse. Her experience paints a picture of profound neglect and trauma that went unaddressed by her caregivers.
From early childhood, Sarah and her sister Ashley experienced significant parental neglect. With an education that consisted primarily of reading classic literature and watching corresponding film adaptations, Sarah was homeschooled, but her learning lacked traditional structure and parental engagement. After being assaulted, she sought comfort from her mother who, distracted on the phone, dismissed her without inquiry and told her to go away. This lack of parental care and attention set the tone for a troubled upbringing.
Tragically, Sarah suffered various types of abuse throughout her formative years. A neighbor, known as Doc, forced her to watch the disturbing act of him killing squirrels and then subjected her to sexual assault. This included oral and digital sexual assault, as well as the horrific use of gardening tools. Another individual, Harold, continued this pattern of abuse by assaulting Sarah and threatening to expel her from the home if she didn't comply. Despite her attempts to reason with him and plead their relationship was akin to father and daughter, he ignored her objections.
In an attempt to cope with the continued abuse, Sarah felt compelled to intoxicate herself to endure Harold's repeated assaults. She described feeling powerless, recounting times when she said no and tried to escape, only to be physically restrained by him. These encounters further destroyed her t ...
Sarah's traumatic childhood and history of abuse
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Sarah's psychological evaluation and the circumstances surrounding her situation reveal a complex system of multiple identities, known as alters, which have evolved as a coping mechanism in response to her traumatic experiences.
Sarah's psychological assessment indicates she has dissociative identity disorder (DID), characterized by the presence of distinct identity states known as alters. These alters can have contrasting personal histories, self-images, and preferences. Through clinical observation, alters manifest differently in body language, tone, facial expressions, and even separate conscious streams of thought. Alters like Myla and Noname serve different roles, with Noname being a "trauma carrier," holding memories from before middle school. In contrast, Myla acts as a protective mother figure to another alter, Vanessa.
Sarah's psychologist, Dr. Hutchinson, notes the differing mannerisms and personalities of the alters, ranging from being "quiet, soft-spoken, apologetic" to "incredibly assertive, definitive, and unapologetic." Alters can have various likes and dislikes, indicative of their separate existence. Vanessa is perceived as depressed and anxious, while Alyssa is seen as protective and strong. This multiplicity of identities within Sarah's DID system is evidenced by changes in behavior, such as differently describing the crime and presenting varying smoking and drinking habits.
DID manifests with varying degrees of alter awareness and control. Some alters, like Alyssa, may emerge to take control in situations where others, such as Vanessa, cannot cope. It's not uncommon for individuals with DID to have alters with no recollection of what the others have done, leading to disjointed memory and frequent episodes of amnesia.
Sarah's DID has been described as a protective mechanism developed in her brain to dissociate from her traumatic childhood experiences. Different alters fulfill specific roles to manage this trauma, like additional "glasses" to hold more trauma.
Psychologist Dr. Mike Lloyd likens an individual's resilience to trauma as a glass cup, with children having a smaller capacity. Sarah's creation of alters seems to be a result of this "overflow" of unresolved trauma, where new identities contain and manage these experiences.
Alters in Sarah's system serve varied roles. For instance, Noname holds traumatic memories, while Alyssa takes on a protective function, emerging specifically to cope with situations that Vanessa, the more ...
The development and role of Sarah's dissociative identity disorder (DID)
A complex legal and moral debate surrounds the case of Sarah, with prosecutors arguing her guilt while advocates for Sarah present her as a victim of Harold's predatory behavior.
Prosecutors contend that Sarah is a cold-blooded killer who meticulously planned and executed the murder of Harold. They point to Sarah's fascination with violence, her comments about understanding serial killers like Jeffrey Dahmer, and her admission to hallucinating and killing faceless men as indicators of her murderous curiosity. The argument is bolstered by the lack of defensive wounds on Harold, suggesting a lack of prolonged struggle, and the thorough planning that went into the murder, including research on methods of killing. Prosecutors further argue that her diagnosis of Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) was fabricated after the arrest to shirk responsibility for her actions.
Advocates for Sarah contend that Harold was an abusive predator who exploited a vulnerable and traumatized Sarah, grooming her for his sexual gratification. They state Harold repeatedly sexually assaulted her, controlled her life in abusive ways including financial domination, and degraded her self-esteem. Harold also manipulated her into undergoing unwanted cosmetic surgeries, created debts to keep her financially enslaved, and is said to have assaulted her multiple times a week. Moreover, Harold's inappropriate behavior with young women and possession of explicit content suggests a pattern of predatory behavior.
Arguments around Sarah's guilt vs. victimhood, and whether Harold was also a perpetrator
During the trial, discussions arose regarding evidence about the defendant's character, which led to contentious decisions about what the jury could consider.
In a controversial ruling, the judge declared that certain aspects of Harold's conduct would not be presented in front of the jury. This exclusion meant that testimony about Harold's inappropriate interactions with other young women was not admitted. Additionally, the jury did not hear evidence related to Harold's internet activities, which included visits to websites hosting explicit and potentially illegal videos.
Specifically, testimony from a single mother about Harold grooming her underage twin daughters by giving them weed, planning to buy them a car, and purchasing them $400 speakers without the mother's knowledge was barred from being discussed in court. Moreover, a data dump from Harold's phones revealed he frequented sites displaying not only child and teen content but also videos depicting bestiality and men being intimate with women who seemed to be sleeping. None of this information was permissible during the trial.
The exclusion of evidence about Harold's past behavior had ...
The trial process and controversial decisions about admissible evidence
Sarah's case has garnered attention due to the severity of her sentence for murder and the complexities surrounding her mental health and history of abuse. Advocates are now rallying for her clemency.
Sarah received a "hard 50" sentence, meaning she has to serve at least 50 years before being eligible for parole. Details emerged that the jury foreman regretted they were not presented with a wider range of sentencing alternatives, such as considering a self-defense argument, given Sarah's history of abuse and mental health conditions. Her attorney was not allowed to depict Mr. Sasko as a sexual predator during the trial, which could have provided crucial context to the case. Additionally, although her legal team appealed the sentence and she was offered a deal to potentially reduce parole to 25 years, there is no guarantee she will obtain parole, especially since it was a violent first-degree murder case.
Advocates strive to shed light on the full context of Sarah's case, highlighting her diagnosis of dissociative identity disorder (DID), major depression, and PTSD. Since her incarceration, Sarah has dedicated herself to self-improvement daily and has shown a desire to help young girls who feel as hopeless as she once did. For instance, she has participated in programs like training service dogs for those with physical or visual impairments. Sarah's remorse for her crime and her reflection on the trauma of her past are taken by her supporters as evidence of her rehabilitation.
Sarah has expressed that if she could speak to the governor, she'd communicate that she is not the same person she was when she committed her crime.
Efforts are underway to reduce Sarah’s sentence or to get her pardoned. Advocates argue that her actions post-murder, such as givin ...
Sarah's life in prison and efforts by advocates to get her sentence reduced or pardoned
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